When I first got Valentine six years ago I was still a college student. Thus as you can imagine money was tight and financing my BJD
habit hobby was not exactly the easiest. If I remember correctly, Valentine did not have a face up for a couple of months until I had enough funds to send her off to Sakuli all the way in Spain. Then there was the issue of a new wig and new glass eyes, which she probably did not get right away either. What about her clothes?? Well, let’s just say she’s worn that same old white dress that’s featured in previous posts for years!!
Well, thanks to my new sewing machine, Valentine’s fate has changed!! An earlier post referred to finally putting a new wig on her as well as eyelashes. Unfortunately, the eyelashes all came off little by little. Fortunately, the wig stayed on!! Now, she gets to wear a new outfit that I have almost completed today!!
As for the dress itself… well, all I can say is practice makes perfect. I really, really love the outcome!! I feel so proud of myself. A feeling I don’t know I’ve had for myself… ever? I did not use enough fabric for the skirt, and thus makes for an awkward fit; but I love the dress non the less.
I spent six hours on this particular dress and I am just amused at how much time goes by without me noticing because I am so consumed in the act and process of sewing.
We are the time that we dedicate towards working on our dreams” — Paulo Neo.
A couple of days ago I got a scholarship email from fastweb telling me I should submit an essay answering the question “what do I wish I could do over again?” in order to participate in the competition. I did not submit an essay, but the question stayed with me all weekend long.
At first I thought that I would start this essay by explaining how I try not to wish I could do something over. I am the sum of my past choices after all. My attitude is “what’s in the past, is in the past”. But as my belly-dancing teacher challenged me to perfect my dance moves while also letting go, I realized that sometimes I give up too easily. I get tired, and I give up. I get lazy, and I give up. I get scared, and I give up.
Therefore, it is not so much that I wish I could go back and fix the fact that I gave up so easily at certain things that I left behind, half-finished, far from completion. But rather that it is time that I should overcome in the face of adversity, and never give up. It feels as though this part of my life is grounded in that life lesson. And so this time, I will not give up.
Now, I also have to work on the procrastination issues. Because the passage above would have made a hell of an essay!!
What do you think? What are your self-perceived limitations and what will it take to overcome them?